Dear Little Dancer

Phoeboa Rei Buen
4 min readDec 14, 2020

Dear Little Dancer,

Nice to meet you! I’ve heard you’re very shy yet you still want to shine. Is it hard standing on stage right now? Don’t you worry because I feel the same every time. It feels scary, I know. It feels like the silence of the audience means you’re not doing good but wait for their applause that gives you that giddy feeling in the end. Little dancer, don’t you worry too much. You’re still young and still have so much to learn. Don’t grow up too fast, you might just want to relax. Just promise me one thing, little dancer. Don’t give up, ok? It’s worth it.

-P.B

Dear Little Dancer,

It’s been a while since I spoke to you. How are you? You’re now in your teens. You’re already 15? Wow! How time goes by so fast. The last time I talked to you, you were only 9 now you’re 15! It’s been 6 years! But I want to know, was it too fast though? I know and I’m sorry. I wasn’t able to tell you that things will go by so fast for you. It only took 4 years before you’re very first competition. I’m sorry if I wasn’t there by your side. But hey! I still think you did a vey great job! But I’m still sorry if it seems like it’s taking all of your teen years… not being able to attend birthday parties and family vacations. I’m sorry if you’re having to face this responsibility but I assure you it would be all worth in the end. Just promise me one thing. Don’t give up, ok?

-P.B

Dear Little Dancer,

You’re not my little dancer anymore, aren’t you? HAHA! You’re now 18! How exciting! You’re becoming a woman. But I heard you’re not happy at the moment? Why is that? Is it because you’re already tired?

Little dancer, I don’t know how you’re feeling right now but I want to tell you that everyone is right beside you. You might feel you’re drowning slowly and have no way up to breathe but people will come and save you but not instantly.

Little dancer, fight a little more. When the feeling is almost gone, remember the first reason why you started. Remember the promise? Don’t give up, ok?

-P.B

Dear Little Dancer,

I know you’re almost 20 but is it still ok to call you “Little Dancer”? It’s because even though you’re all grown up now, deep down, I know you’re still my little dancer who’s very shy and afraid when standing on stage.

I see that you’re still dancing. I’m so proud of you, you know why? You kept our promise. Of all the hardships and sacrifices you’ve done, I’m very proud of what you’ve become. You remained strong despite the tiring and lonely days. You stood firm despite people trying to pull you down. There are moments when you think you’re running out of time because it feels like you’re moving too slow, but just remember it is the world that is moving fast and it’s ok not to keep up with it sometimes.

My little dancer, I’m so proud of you. Words cannot describe how proud I am of you. I know you’re still going but just promise me one thing, don’t give up, ok?

-P.B

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I wanted to write this series “ Dear, Little Dancer” of mine from the perspective of my future self sending letters to my youngers years. Starting from a little girl who dreams of becoming a professional dancer soon, to a teen who is struggling whether or not to still continue, up to who she is today still not giving up of her dreams.

And that’s what’s keeping me going. The little dancer I was before is still within me even though I’ve grown. I want to remind myself that there will always be that little dancer who’s continuously dreaming. The little dancer who is staying inspired. The little dancer who I will look back into and say “you made it and it is because you never gave up.”

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Phoeboa Rei Buen

An aspiring dancer who believes dance has no set standards Communication student | Ballet dancer